It is what iit is.

There are moments in life when you look around and wonder is this really it?
Is this all my life will be?
Growing up we have these grand ideas of what our lives will be like when we grow up.
We will be wealthy. We will marry some one wonderful and have beautiful children.
We have dreams of bliss.
Then we grow up and settle in to what our lives really are.
Hopefully we have a considerate spouse and obedient children, a modest living and a comfortable home.
All the while, we wonder if there is something better. Could I be happier?
In Buddhism there are four Noble Truths about life. The second one explains a lot.

The second truth is that suffering is caused by craving and aversion. We will suffer if we expect other people to conform to our expectation, if we want others to like us, if we do not get something we want,etc. In other words, getting what you want does not guarantee happiness. Rather than constantly struggling to get what you want, try to modify your wanting. Wanting deprives us of contentment and happiness. A lifetime of wanting and craving and especially the craving to continue to exist, creates a powerful energy which causes the individual to be born. So craving leads to physical suffering because it causes us to be reborn.

From this I understand that our suffering comes from the wanting. Wanting more. Wanting him to treat me how I treat him. Wanting things that I will not ultimately receive.
Here I am conflicted. I know that my wanting, expecting more or different I create unhappiness for myself.
On the other hand, does this mean that I have to accept what I have and be comfortable in it? To just "deal" with my life as it is? Should I be content in mediocrity?
Does that question alone diminish the tone of my life?
Most likely. By saying 'mediocrity' at all I have stated that my life is not good enough.
Thus, creating negative energy.
The ultimate question: Do I change it? Do I find peace and acceptance in my life now?
It's all hypocrisy and catch 22s.
For now, I'll leave it alone.