I will survive.. or will I?

Every day we face a hundred things that affect us.
Some one with a nsty attitude says the wrong thing.
Traffic may be a bitch on the way to work.
Work may pile up and you have to scramble to get it done.
Maybe you didn't get enough sleep.
You may have to pick up afte ryour family every day.
Maybe your car breaks down.
Maybe your coworker gets on your damn nerves.
Or the people closest to you seem to have absolutley no idea who you are.
There are so many things that could happen in a day.
Some people call these tests. As in, we are tested daily to build character or determine how we handle these situations.
At times, we may shake these things off and go on unaffected.
At times, we may want desperately to scream or rip someones face off.
Who knows the right answer? If I react poorly to a situation does that make me weak? Does it mean I'm not a good Christian?
Surely, we all have a little crazy in us. Surely, God forgives momentary lapses in judgement.
Because really, I am not a saint. I doubt I'm even one of Gods favorites. He knows where I stand. He also knows my limits. So, undoubtedly He forgives me, right?
Quite often, I don't know what's right or how to behave. I'm rude. I'm mean. Sometimes even vicious.
But, I love my family. I'm forgiving and accepting. I may resent the way they treat me, but, I take it and move on. And I love them just the same.
I think my biggest question is why?
Why is it okay for some people to just go along with worries or cares? Why is it that I have to stress out? Other people seem to be able to just sail through the day with no worries or cares..
Here I go whining again. That's the point right?
You just suck it up. That makes you a better person.
Well, to that I say~ bullshit.